It's That Time Already

Last night before going to sleep, I had this ambition of blogging about how I wanna welcome the New Year. Yes, it’s that time already. It feels like just yesterday when I was blabbing about the year 2007 (while 2008 was making an entrance). It’s a cliché, I know, but hey, I genuinely feel that way. Sigh. Anyway, I suddenly don’t feel like writing too much. There’s a lot I need to think about right now. Not forgetting the fact that I’m pms-ing. I just feel like crying. Damn it. I never feel like crying on a day of traveling back to good old KL. Something must be bothering me. Something not big, but not small (to me) either. You lovely people must think I’m losing it. Maybe, a little. But I’m only losing my cool, not my mind. Even so, not completely. I think I better stop right now. Here’s wishing all of you out there Happy New Year! May God be kind to us all (as always) more than this time last year, less than this time next year. Hope I got that one right. Enough of overused phrases in one entry. I’ll see you lovely people next year. InsyaAllah. Pray for our (my Darling and I) safe journey back home and back here. Don’t forget to party hard. Goodbye!

p/s : I know this has nothing to do with anything at all, but Jenny Humphrey (from Gossip Girl - Season 2) is such a brat!

Have You Ever

Have you ever felt like being an irresponsible person? I have. In fact, I feel like doing something irresponsible right this very minute. Hmm.

p/s : Dear God, please help.

Reasonable Enough

Just a random question to you lovely people out there, how long do you take to get yourself ready for work? From the moment you open your eyes to the moment you’re heading out of the house. Twenty minutes? Forty five, maybe? I need a solid 60 minutes. Yes, an hour of uninterrupted ‘getting ready’ time. Wanna guess how long my Darling takes to get ready in the morning? Fifteen minutes! Fifteen freaking minutes! How does one achieve that? Hmm.

The reason why I am suddenly putting thoughts in this not so interesting subject (I mean people around are still talking about the bombing in Mumbai, the landslide in Bukit Antarabangsa, etc.) is because my Darling woke up late this morning and yet still managed to be ready before I did. Magic sangat. And I was left wondering wth happened? Aku slow sangat ke? I don’t think so. I don’t put on excessive make-up. In fact, I don’t put on make-up at all. So? Apakah reason nyer?

I called to wake him up half way thru my process of getting ready (half way ok?). In the end, he beat me at it. Saya sungguh tidak puas hati. Haha. I guess I’ll just have to live with it. Tapi kenapa? Hmm. It’s not a competition or anything. I’m just curious. He bathes, he puts on whatever stuffs on his face and he uses hair gel and all that other things. But how did he manage to do them so quickly? Fifteen minutes? I know! It’s because I need to put a head scarf on. That has to be it, right? Yes, it has to be. OK. Now I know. Then again, is it reasonable enough that I need extra forty five minutes just to put my scarf on? Haha. Who cares?

Our Wedding Ring

Our Wedding Ring

(Meaningless) Entry

I had migraine this morning. It woke me. :( I feel a bit better now. I am doing my work with my sunglasses on in the office. I just can't stand the light. It makes me dizzy. Sigh. Pray that I get well soon. Oh ya, I'll be flying off to KL later this evening. I'm gonna be attending two courses. One in Bangi and the other one in KL. I will be in KL until the 3rd of December. :D So febeles people, nk party x? Marila~ :D (lega skit sakit kepala aku kalau cerita psl party. hehe.)

Anyway, this entry was supposed to be posted last Friday. I didn't get to post it. Walaupun dh basi cerita ni, aku x kire. Read on.. :)

Hello lovely people. I think I owe lots of pictures and updates (as promised in previous entries) but given the fact that I only have readers I can count with one hand, I think it’s OK if I let that be for now and blab about some other nonsense. :)

We had a farewell makan-makan earlier today for some of the staffs that are gonna be demobed next week. I am so full and sleepy, hence this (meaningless) entry.

Yesterday (or was it two days ago?) my ex-boss came up to me (while I was in a discussion with my Cost Engineer) and asked, “Jes, Jes, am I putting on weight? Gemuk tak I?” Hearing that, I jokingly tried to look at his bump (sopan nye gune word ni kn? :p) for a better judgement. To my surprise, he walked in front of me to provide better view. Best tak? (matila amek kesempatan katanya). Haha. Then I honestly said (with a big grin), “Not really. Dulu lagi teruk.” He answered, “ Aaahh. Dulu lagi teruk kn? OK OK.” and walked back to his workstation with a smile. Some of you might be wondering what was all that about. The thing is, he (my ex-boss) used to be fat that his wallet would be protruding out of his bump like nobody’s business. This is of course due to the fact that his pants got too tight for him. And guess who was so honest about the whole situation? Yours truly, of course. :D I mean, he did ask. What was I supposed to do? Honesty is the best policy kn? Dah ttibe dier ckp, “ Gemuk kn I skang?” “Hehe. Emm. Agak la. Ketat suar you. Sexy semcm dh. Wallet pun mcm ssh je nk masuk tu.” I answered. He laughed so hard and said, “Tu la. Ssh jgk la actually”. Hehe. Itula sebabnye dier ske dtg kt aku and tanya whether dier dh gemuk ke x. Because everytime we were to discuss about health/weight related issues, he will never forget what I said. We had a good laugh. :)

Happy Birthday

Me and Papa during Raya this year

My father turns 64 today. Alhamdulillah. I ordered cupcakes for him. Since I am in Bintulu, my sis, Neeta will be picking them up later today. I hope she won't forget to snap a pic of the cuppies before they start eating. Hehe. I'll upload the picture of my father's birthday cupcakes later. I really hope they are gonna be lovely (and tasty) and that he's gonna like them. Anyway, Happy Birthday Pa. May you be showered with good health, great fortune and lots of love always. :)

Tag Bahasa Melayu

Aku telah ditag oleh Jalina beberapa minggu yg lalu. So inilah jwpan kepada soklan2 yg hanya org takde keje je sebuk nk jwb. Oh btw, ini ialah tag bahasa melayu.

Nama-nama timangan anda :
Jesmin – strangers
Jes - my friends
Min – my bosses (I know, but it’s really beyond my control)
Aming – people who are really close to me, family mostly and some of my sister’s friends
Sayang/Manje – Darling ku :D

Anda seorang yang :
1. Degil & cerewet (for all the good reasons of course :p)
2. Pemurah & baik hati
3. Suka bagi hadiah kt orang dan juga diri sendiri
4. Suka gila kat budak2 (xde range umur mcm acai..sume budak2 yg baik and well-behaved aku suka)
4. Manja dengan orang tertentu (wpun Darling ku ckp, aku mmg manja dgn suma org. motif?)
5. Moody
6. Gemuk dan hitam (dulu) tapi kurus dan tak berapa hitam (skarang) (ni point tak perlu tapi aku nk type jugak. so?)

Insan Teristimewa ?? Describekan Die Terlalu Istimewa Dimata Anda :
Apsal ayat dier macam tak lengkap ar? Aku yg dpt D utk BM masa UPSR dulu pun tau mcm slh je ayat dier ni. Cane nk jwb? Takyah jwb leh x? Tak reti nk jwb ape. Tak phm soklan. (matila x jwb soklan tp ttp nk bebel).

Lagu kesukaan anda :
Berlambak. Tapi yg paling suka dr dulu sampe skang ialah Everything I Do, I Do It For You. :D

Makanan kesukaan anda :
Angin :)

Warna kesukaan anda :
Warna warni. Tp kalau gadget, seboleh2 nya PINK. Macam iPod ku. :D

Tiga benda yang mesti ada dalam beg anda :
1. Wallet
2. Handphone
3. Hand Sanitizer

Kali terakhir masa anda menangis dan kenapa :
Aku slalu menangis. Kata drama queen. Hehe. Act, tak igt dah last skali menangis masa bila. Tp rasa nya last month kot sbb hampir2 tak dpt dewan yg aku nk utk wedding aku. Haha. (Yes, I am getting married! :) Matila wat announcement dlm entry tag sajor.) Tp last2 dpt juge. Alhamdulillah.

Tag 6 rakan anda :
Aku mmg suka tak ikut direction karut2 ni so aku nak tag sorang ja iaitu Jas.

p/s : aku baru la perasan benda alah ni sebenarnya kena jwb dlm bahasa melayu shj. tp aku peduli apa kn?

What Bonds Us

If there’s one entry I want him to read, it’s definitely this one.

I feel like we have grown apart a little. Maybe not, I don’t know. Maybe we have grown too comfortable. Too comfortable that we are being complacent. Mind you, we are not in trouble. We are fine. We are. Promise. :)

I don’t know if it’s the hormones, but something got me thinking. Maybe after we were apart for quite sometime this month, I felt a little different. Something made me realize that we are not like we used to be. We see each other everyday. But what do we actually do? I don’t quite know.

We used to email each other at work. Now? I only get a forwarded email from him maybe once in two days (if I’m lucky). I’m not blaming him. I don’t forward him emails at all sometimes. I miss the jokes we used to share through emails. I do. So much.

We used to sms each other at work no matter how busy. Now? I only get an sms asking me to pick him at the end of the day or sometimes to go for lunch. Nothing much in between. Then again, nothing I’ve done to put the routine back to it’s place. I just let it be. But I miss the times when I’d have to juggle between finishing up my work and replying his sms.

We used to play tennis together almost every evening. Now? He goes to play with his guy friends. Not that I mind. I think he’ll be better off playing with them anyway. I mean, how can a guy improve playing with a girl right? Unless I’m Jelena Jankovic (matila tanak tulis Serene or Venus as contoh). Still, I miss the amusement we shared on the court. It really got us close to each other.

I don’t know what bonds us nowadays. The time spent in the car to and from work? Have we officially reached that level? The level where people just go through a relationship (doing nothing out of the ordinary) just because they are in it? Have we really reached that point? How did we manage to go ‘there’ so early? It scares me. It scares me big time. So, I think I’m gonna have to do something to make us not go ‘there’ so early. Or better still, not go ‘there’ at all. :)

I really don’t wanna end up feeling like he has to be with me just because. I wanna know that he is with me because he wants to. Right now, it feels like we are distant despite being so near. I don’t think we are unhappy. I just think we forgot what we used to have that made us close, the quality time. Real quality time. Hmm. But no worries, I will try to refresh both our memories. Hehe.

So, pray for me people. I’m on a journey to revive my love life. Although I don’t quite know how yet. But I hope I will succeed. Hey, who knows, he might realize that we have been too complacent and decided to do something too. :D

p/s : What has been written, everything, is solely what I feel. Like I said, it could be the hormones talking. I’m not blaming him at all. It takes two to tango people. Remember that! Toodles~!

p/s lagi : WE ARE NOT IN TROUBLE! To my darling, I love you and I miss US.. :)

If Not Much More

A friend of mine recently shared quite an interesting story about her relationship with her boyfriend. I am not quite in the mood to tell the full version of the story. So I’m just gonna highlight the important points (tp aku rs akn jd pjg jgk las2).

So her boyfriend went out with one of his best friends (who happens to wear panties – pardon my French) one night. Not that it was a problem for my friend. She really never did mind. This, given the fact that she has never met the girl he’s going out with. That’s how much trust she had bestowed on him. Anyway, she wasn’t waiting up for him or anything (it was almost 12 midnight ok, I wouldn’t wait up too) but she was expecting a text (at the very least) from him the next morning. Not to report of his activities to her, but to tell her that he is safely home or something like that. So she asked why he didn’t sms her. His answer apart from saying he was too sleepy and all, Because you didn’t tell me to. As shocked as my friend was, she diplomatically replied (at first), Oh? I thought we have always practiced that.

Anyway, when she made a fuss out of the whole thing, he thought she was jealous. He didn’t understand why she was making a deal out of the fact that he didn’t text her when he came home. Of course my friend was hurt. I mean, they always tell each other when they have reached home after an outing regardless with who. And to be (kind of) accused of being jealous was not making things better for her. But being her, she chose to let go.

A few days after, she went out for dinner with some friends. She told him prior to that. But once she got home, she totally forgot to text him telling him that she was home. Not intentionally. She wanted to but there were a lot happening (broken fan, hp battery went flat, wanting to catch a movie on HBO etc.) in the house once she got back that it slipped her mind. He then asked her why she didn’t text him saying that she’s safely home. She was so tempted to answer, because you didn’t tell me to. Then again, knowing her, she answered that and something else. The truth. She couldn’t really tell if he was upset or anything. But he then replied, It’s ok. We sometimes forget what we have been practicing. Yes. His exact reply. You guess right, his sarcasm was not making things better at all. When she again made a fuss about his statement, he said that he just wants to know if she is safe. That’s all.

So I made an interesting conclusion out of the whole story. If she ever makes a fuss about him not texting, she’s jealous of his girlfriends. If he ever makes a fuss about her not texting, he’s concern about her safety. How does that work actually? Does she not have the right to worry about his safety? I guess not as much as him. But she loves him just as much as he loves her, if not much more. Hmm. So bagaimana?

On a different topic completely, I love this song. Don’t quite know why. Enjoy!

Someone's Watching Over Me – Hillary Duff

Found myself today
Oh I found myself and ran away
Something pulled me back
The voice of reason I forgot I had
All I know is you're not here to say
What you always used to say
But it's written in the sky tonight

So I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even if it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe
Someone's watching over me

Seen that ray of light
And it's shining on my destiny
Shining all the time
And I wont be afraid
To follow everywhere it's taking me
All I know is yesterday is gone
And right now I belong
To this moment to my dreams

So I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even if it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe
Someone's watching over me

It doesn't matter what people say
And it doesn't matter how long it takes
Believe in yourself and you'll fly high
And it only matters how true you are
Be true to yourself and follow your heart

So I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even if it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe
That I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even when it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe
That someone's watching over
Someone's watching over
Someone's watching over me

Someone's watching over me

Thank You Darling!

I know that I am somehow supposed to be updating about my raya celebration above everything else, but for now, I can only thank my Darling. I am so happy right now. :D :D :D :D Thank you Darling! Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. So much. I love the gift you got me. Thanks again. Nk senyum lagi. :D :D :D :D

p/s : just in case some of you are wondering what I am blabbing about, wait for the updates ya..hehe..and also the pics..I had a blast this year.. :)

p/s lagi : sneak preview raya celebration ku : acai dtg beraya rumah aku sampe pecah gelas br blk..haha.. :p

Selamat Hari Raya

Hye lovely people. :) Today, I had time to kill. Lots of time. So I decided to play around with Picasa. Hence, the following entries. :D Enjoy!

Oh btw, I'll be going off tonight. Penang, here I come~! :) Tak sabar nye nak meracau time raya with my sisters and friends. Anyway, pray for my (and also my Darling's) safety ya. Selamat Hari Raya, Maaf Zahir Batin. Stay safe everyone. Will see you when I get back. Toodles!

p/s : anyone feeling overly generous? aku nk hadiah raya! (ttibe je kn :p) tp kalau xde, xpe la kot. just enjoy this song. :)

Bintulu Kite Fest '08

 

My Birthday Celebration

 

Perhentian Island '08

 

Weird Stranger

It’s really quiet at the office today. Most of my colleagues have left to start their Raya holidays. I’ll be off on Monday night and will only be back 2 weeks after. No, I’m not getting engaged or married or any of that sort. But something sure is happening during the 2 weeks I’m home. InsyaAllah. :) I’m so excited! And also a little bit nervous.

The reason I’m actually here today is because I’m just too lazy to work. Who works on Fridays anyway? Hehe. So, I wanna share a little story with you people. A telephone conversation between me and a weird stranger.

There I was watching According to Jim on the telly when my handphone rang. I looked at it and it wasn’t a familiar number. I don’t usually pick up if I don’t recognize the caller, but on that day, I did. Here goes the conversation…

Me : Hello
She : Hello. Ni sape?
Me : (menyirap darah aku kalau org tepon pastu tanye soklan camni) Nk ckp dgn sape?
She : Ade x call number 012 – xxxxxx td?
Me : Xde pun. (dgn confident nyer)
She : Xde. Number ni ade miss call number 012 – xxx xxxx td. Tu psl sy call nk tanye ni.
Me : Ni sape? I x pnah call number ni pun.
She : Ohh x. Mmg la bkn number ni. Number ni 012 –yyy yyyy. Sy tanye number td tu.
Me : Tu number sape?
She : Tu number tunang sy. Dier ckp ni number laki. Maybe kwn adik dier.
Me : Sape nama tunang awak?
She : Nafi.
Me : Hah? X kenal. Nama adik dier?
She : Kepen.
Me : X kenal jgk. Sy x kenal tunang awak and adik dier. Rs nya sy x pnah pun terdail number tunang awk tu. Cube cek betul2.
She : Sy dh cek la td tu. Ni yg sy call number ni. Dier suruh sy call.
Me : (wth? apsal tunang kau suh call?) Sori. X kenal sesape pun.
She : Ok lah. Tp ni number laki ke pompuan?
Me : (ayo pompuan ni. ttp kn??) Ni number sy.
She : Ohh. Number pompuan la ek. So mmg x pnah call number td tu ek?
Me : (nk je aku jwb, x lah, bkn pompuan, ni number pondan) X pnah.
She : Ok lah.

And then I hung up. My goodness. Wth? I really do not understand why she did what she did and why he asked her to call whichever number that miscalled him on his handphone! I told my Darling about the whole weird episode and he laughed and said, ‘Keji la pompuan gile jealous nak mampus.’ Something that never crossed my mind. Haha. She was probably checking her fiance’s handphone or something. But the truth is I never did dial his number. I actually checked my dialed numbers just to be sure. No such number. Weird kn? Hmm.



On a completely different note, tomorrow, this lovely space will turn 1. :D Yes people, I have been pouring my hearts out here for a year. :) Good thing this space tidak boleh berkata-kata. Kalau x, mesti aku kene maki kn. Hehe. Thanks bloggy. Just for being there everytime I need you to. Happy Birthday! XOXO~

All About The Number Five

I have been tagged by Jas. I have been really busy but since today, my tummy is acting up, I decided to do this tag (aku tau xde kene mngene tp ske ati aku la kn? :p) Anyway, here goes.

Rules
The rules of the game get posted at the beginning. Each player answers the questions about themselves. At the end of the post, the player then tag 5 people and post their names, then goes to their blogs and leave them a comment, letting them know they’ve been tagged. Let the person who tagged you know when you answered the questions.

What were you doing 5 years ago?
Five years ago, when I was 21 years old, I was still in UTP, having a blast with the lahanats and enjoying every moment of my single life! :D

What were the 5 things on your to do list today?
1. Berangan! (ni mmg ari2 ade)
2. Do internet banking
3. Pick up my baju kurung and kebaya from the tailor
4. Do laundry
5. Cook sahur for my darling

What are 5 snacks that you enjoy?
1. Shoyumie (strips of soya-based snack)
2. Super Ring
3. Twisties, specifically the purple one
4. Roller Coaster, yg biru punya, nyum2~
5. Raisins (ade gak mknan yg sihat kn? hehe)

What are 5 things that you would do if you were a billionaire?
1. Take my parents to perform their Haj
2. Pay all my family’s debts
3. Buy 2 houses, 1 for my parents, 1 for me
3. Buy 2 cars, 1 for my parents, 1 for me
4. Give some to charity
5. Spend on vacations, clothes, shoes, bags before I keep the rest :)

What are 5 jobs you’ve had?
1. Waitress
2. EHS trainee at Motorola (ni kira ka ar?)
3. Tutor
4. Technologist (for about 1 month kot..the shortest job I’ve ever had)
5. Cost Controller

Tag 5 other Blogger…?
1. Acai
2. Zalina
3. Shasha
4. Peah
5. Irwan

So there you have it. All about the number 5 tag. :)

Any Other Day

On any other day, having to wait for 10 minutes in the car will not have affected me. But on the day when PMS reigns, it made me cry.

On any other day, having to seat alone half the time through dinner will not have affected me. But on the day when PMS reigns, it made me sad.

On any other day, having to pick up my own luggage to be put in the car will not have affected me. But on the day when PMS reigns, it made me mad.

On any other day, having to comfort myself after a series of mishaps will not have affected me. But on the day when PMS reigns, it made me weep.

On any other day, having to be corrected in the kitchen will not have affected me. But on the day when PMS reigns, it made me anxious.

On any other day, having to change plans will not have affected me. But on the day when PMS reigns, it made me angry.

On any other day, having to be told that you are fine with everything will not have affected me. But on the day when PMS reigns, it made me furious.

On any other day, having to try and make normal conversation with you will not have affected me. But on the day when PMS reigns, it made me upset.

On any other day, having to wait for a reply email will not have affected me. But on the day when PMS reigns, it made me crazy.

On any other day, having to stay hungry will not have affected me. But on the day when PMS reigns, it made me numb.

p/s : Isn’t PMS evil? :( Pls say something to make me feel better. It feels like nobody cares. Man, PMS is a b*tch!

A Change of Mood

In life, you just can’t expect others to give you what you wish for. You’ll just have to work for it and earn everything on your own. Perhaps that’s why God has been so generous towards me, so that I can get what I want on my own accord. Alhamdulillah.

Btw, I’m off to KL tomorrow for a meeting. I should be jumping up and down, but I’m really not all that excited. Hopefully as tomorrow draws near, I’ll have a change of mood. I really need it. Big time.

p/s : Damn you pms!

:D

I want a lot of things
But I can’t have anything
I wish you’d give me something
So I can actually feel like I have everything
:D

Happy Birthday

Hola! I’m back, by popular demand of course (matila baru 3 org tanye nape x updet blog trus declare popular katanya). Anyway, I’m back and all is well. :D

I know it’s probably a little late for me to do this, but my big brother turned 31 last Wednesday and here’s wishing him a happy belated birthday. God bless. :)

me and my brother during my birthday celebration :)

Oh btw, a lot has happened since the last time I wrote. I am too lazy to write about it all right now. So, I will most likely post some pictures later. Wait for them ya? Till then, selamat berpuasa. Toodles.

Goodbye

I need a good long rest and a miracle to restore what has been lost. Goodbye.

Trouble In Paradise

I smell trouble in paradise. Man, I'm in deep sh*t. Sigh. Hopefully it's nothing serious. *takut*

Wishful Thinking

Hello everyone. Today I feel so much better. I have been sick for the past one week or so. I was down with a terrible flu. Nonetheless, it took me two visits to two different doctors before I get to feeling like I feel today. Hmm. But anyways, here I am, all well and in high spirits. :) Arini terasa macam nak berangan sebab my birthday is around the corner (ada kena mengena tak?). Hehe. Papepun, tgk lah list ‘what I wish I will get for my birthday’ saya yang melampau iniew. :D

1. Madaline Leather Tote by Coach

2. Optic Baby Bag by Coach

3. Patchwork by Coach

4. Montorgueil GM by LV

5. Tivoli GM by LV

6. Tivoli PM by LV

7. Aquaracer by Tag Heuer

8. Link by Tag Heuer

9. Atlas by Tiffany & Co.

10. Hearts by Tiffany & Co.

Haa. Tu dia. Tak banyak kn? 10 aje. Haha. Mrasa! Sigh. I know these things will only remain in the memories of my many episodes of wishful thinking-s. But a girl can always hope and dream right? Who knows, I might just get one of those things up there delivered personally to me on my birthday. :D (matila berangan tak sudah).

Tired

Is it so hard to let someone feel that they are important? I never felt that it’s difficult. In fact, I can safely say that I have (most of the time) succeeded in doing so, at least to the ones important enough to me. How do I know this? I have been told so a few times. Tp kan. Orang2 yg aku treat so specially tu jarang2 nk treat me the same. I just wonder why. I set too high a standard ke? I don’t think so. Mcm simple je bende2 yg aku buat tu. But still I don’t usually get treated the same. It makes me sad really. Tak reti nk handle this kinda feelings. Sigh. I’m tired. :(

Dead Wrong, Again

I am sad. I am beginning to feel that the phrase ‘do unto others what you want others to do unto you’ is bull. At least, in my case. I have always done this thing when I am about to be away for courses or meetings or etc. And deep down inside I kinda hope (or probably stupidly expect) that the same will be done when the other person is about to be away for all the same reasons. But I was wrong. Dead wrong, again. And it caught me by surprise because I really thought that this time around, things are all different. I have somehow developed a feeling (no matter who I go out with) that things I do for others will not ever be returned the same even if the situation is exactly the same. Some of you might be wondering why don’t I just ask or say something, right? Well, if I were to say anything with regards to this, I am sure as hell that I’ll be hailed as the most inconsiderate self-centred non-understanding controlling individual ever. So, having said that, I just wanna cry my heart out. Why? Because right now, I feel as shitty as I used to feel when I was with my ex. :(

p/s : note to self, STOP BEING A SELFISH INCONSIDERATE B*TCH! Dear God, a little help?

'The' Conversation

Venue : Kuching Airport
Time : Around 5.30 pm

After ‘the’ conversation and discussion and updates and what not…

He : Are you OK? Why are you so quiet? You worried?
She : Yeah. A bit.
He : It’s OK. If you’re not ready, you tell me. I’ll wait. (with the sweetest most understanding smile ever)
She : Hmm. OK.

I don’t even know why I am feeling this way. Sigh. I just don’t believe I’m having all these weird thoughts running wild in my mind. Why? Hmm. Nevermind.

Oh ya, guess what? We won! Yeay! We managed to bag the Gold Medal this year. Alhamdulillah. You people have no idea how good it felt to finally beat the defending champion of three years. I mean after having to lose to them three consecutive years, victory could not have tasted any sweeter. :D Anyway, congratulations are in order to my lovely and fun teammates. Miss you guys and 'makciks' already. Can't wait to see you people again next year. Actually, I can't wait to kick 'her' a*s next year. Hehe.

From KK With Love

I've Been Tagged

I’ve been tagged by Zalina. Well, considering the reality that I have loads to do but am in absolutely no mood to do them, here I am. :) So, here goes – 7 interesting/weird facts about me.

1. I am afraid of the dark
I cannot sleep without the lights. I travel alone quite a lot and whenever it’s time to sleep, I have to have the telly (and some of the lights) keep me company until I doze off. At home, I have this small IKEA light to do the honors. I simply cannot sleep in total darkness unless someone is by my side or in the same room. Ye, saya ialah penakut. And your point is?

2. I get moody when my undies don’t match
Hehe. I know it’s nobody’s fault that when I wanted to spend the night over at a friend’s, I wrongly brought over an unmatched pair of undies to be worn to work the next day. But still, it got me moody. I know. Weird. Truth is, I’m still figuring out why it actually got me so moody. And in case some of you were wondering, I brought baby blue bra and turquoise panty. See, told you they don’t match. Anyone would be moody too right? :p

3. I do not know how to ride a bicycle
Yes, you read correctly. I have lived for 2 decades (Alhamdulillah) and yet do not know how to ride a bicycle. I think I used to try learning when I was little but I failed so many times that I gave up. And now, two decades later, I’m just too afraid to try again. Sebab takut jatuh. Sakit ok?

4. I do not like rice
This probably will make some people think I’m really weird. But, I really do not like rice. I like bread though. I love them actually. I can finish one whole loaf by myself, with only butter and jam. :) Ttibe lapar. *kruk* *kruk*

5. I have 8 piercings on my body
I have three on each ears, which makes six. One on my nose. And the other one is a secret. :p There, eight.

6. I am a cry baby
How do I elaborate on this particular point? Hmm. I basically cry over every single thing that doesn’t go my way (secretly, of course). And I literally mean everything, even when I can not hit my forehand or backhand properly. Haha. Sian x my Darling? :p

7. I always get weird people for a boss
I do. They are just the weirdest if not the blurriest. I don’t think I wanna be giving details on this point. Too much. Just hope God will always provide me with the patience I have always asked from Him. :)

Dah. Selesai. Now, I’m supposed to tag 7 other people and they are :
1. Acai Kebede
2. Shafizal/Hafizal/Jai Maddox/Peah (mrasa!)
3. Jassu
4. Irwan
5. Anyone with time to waste
6. Anyone who knows me (haha)
7. Anyone at all

I think I just tagged more than 7 people. Tapi xpe la kot. The more the merrier kn?

On a completely different topic, I’m so tired. I feel like sleeping until Saturday. I’m off to KK tomorrow to go get myself tanned (dark is more like it). No, I’m not going sunbathing on the beautiful beaches of the islands in KK, I’m gonna go play tennis. It’s the time I’ve been waiting for actually. But today when it’s so close, I’m emotionless. Rasa mcm nk tdo je. But anyways, wish me luck peeps! :D I’m off to go slave myself under the scorching sun of KK. Adios!

p/s : Don’t miss me! (as if)

Selamat Ari Gawai

I'll be off for a long weekend and I've got fun plans waiting for me. Yeay~ Hehe. Wait for my updates ya! Be safe and toodles! :D And oh, before I go, I'd like to wish all my Dayak friends, "Selamat Ari Gawai, Gayu Guru Gerai Nyamai Lantang Senang Nguan Menua" (Happy Gawai, May You Enjoy Peace and Prosperity). Kalau ade yg perlu bertanya, no, I did not come up with that wish on my own. I took it from my company's website. Haha. Bye!

Truly Devoted

I have been busy and I am still busy actually. Tp ttp nk update my blog because I just cannot handle people around me anymore. Need a break.

Anyway, my gossip partner and I were having a drink this afternoon and we got to talking about being faithful. I don’t know how that topic actually came up, but it did. Here’s how part of the conversation went.

GP : Jes, kau pernah menipu tak?
Me : Ade orang tak pernah menipu ke?
GP : Dengan A*e dulu la..
Me : Ha? Menipu cane ni? Kalau menipu cakap, pernah la. Sape tak pernah?
GP : Kau pernah curang tak?
Me : Ohh. Pernah. Tapi aku rase dier tak pernah tahu kot.
GP : Boleh tahan jugak kau ek. Kat mane? KL ke? Mamat tu keje mane? Handsome tak? (punye la penyibuk kn, bertubi soklan ditanye)
Me : Amboi. Ye la, kat KL la. Kat Bintulu ni nak curang dengan sape pun.
GP : Kire kau pnah ade 2 boyfriends at one time la?
Me : Emm. Tak kot. Aku pun tak tau. Tapi what’s for sure is that we were more than friends la.
GP : Kau memang suke dier ke kau saje2 bosan nak sakitkan hati A*e?
Me : Entah. Aku boring kot. Tapi aku memang suke mamat tu. Ade pernah terlintas gak aku nak tinggalkn A*e to pursue this guy sebab aku dah x seronok, tapi aku tak wat pun.
GP : Laa..apsal?
Me : Sebab aku bodoh kot.

There. The conversation was way longer but I just had to leave some of the details out to protect my privacy. (Yela tu kn). Actually, this isn’t the first time a friend is asking me if I’ve always been loyal. To tell you the truth, I am a loyal person (under the normal circumstances that is). Truly devoted. But I guess when I was with my ex, I wasn’t actually very happy. I felt restricted and very uncomfortable. Not forgetting to mention that he was a jacka*s that was cheating behind my back most of the time. And don't even get me started on the lies he told me. But still, that’s not a good excuse to be cheating behind anybody’s back. But I did cheat on him. No one knows about this other guy except my best friend. Even so, I only told her after I broke up with my ex. No wait, after my ex broke up with me. Hmm. Some might say, it’s probably not considered cheating if you only go out and did nothing. Agreed. Only I think (I know actually) I was in a relationship with this other guy. We went out practically everyday after work when I was in KL. And no, he didn’t know I had a boyfriend at that point of time. Of course la kn. Kalau dh dier tahu, tu dh bukan menipu la. Ke still kire as menipu? Hmm.

Come to think of it, why didn’t I actually leave my ex for this guy? Hmm. Tak sampai hati agaknya. Plus, he was not really my type. (Eceh, ye ke?) Or probably was just too stupid. But, I’m glad I didn’t leave my ex or things might just be different and I won’t be ending up with my Darling right now. That would probably be the biggest miss ever. Rugi tau. :D

Alhamdulillah

Alhamdulillah. Today, I feel so blessed and grateful. Thanks Mr. PRD for conveying the ever so good news to me. :D Yeay~! Boleh berbelanja orang dan diri sendiri dengan sesuka hati lagi. Hehe.

p/s : Dear God, thank you for granting me with this. Just please don't ever make me forget the fact that everything I get, I get only because You generously give them to me. And for that, Alhamdulillah and thank you so much.

All Is Well

It’s Wesak Day today and it’s supposed to be a public holiday. I should be lazing around the house membela my lemaks but instead, I’m at work. Sigh. I really hate the long weekend this time. I felt so lonely and bored and unproductive. What makes it worse was my Darling had to work on Saturday and Sunday. And today, he’s gone on a fishing trip with his friends and I’m stuck at work. That’s why I hate this particular long weekend. It’s because I haven’t been spending any quality time with my Darling. Even when he dropped by to have dinner with me and watch the telly, he was dozing off occasionally. So clearly he’s too tired to melayan kerenah aku yg mengada iniew. To add up to the whole situation, it's the time of the month for me. Ade kene mngene ke? ADE! :p

So anyway, I was left at home the whole of Saturday, lying in front of the telly. Yes people, the whole day. I seriously didn’t do anything except maybe occasionally getting up to go to the loo. Itu pun sebab terpaksa. :p Mmg pemalas kn. Ye saya tahu. And that made me so bloody moody because I was missing him so much. I know he’s gotta work but still, I can’t help but feel a little neglected. Ngade kn? Hehe. I know. And because I was dead bored on Saturday from doing absolutely nothing, on Sunday, I decided to cook. Nothing special. Tak sedap pun, as usual. Sian my Darling. Untuk menjaga hati aku yg x pandai masak ni, berulang kali ckp aku masak sedap. I think he was just being nice. Nevermind lah. As long as I did something to kill time while he was at work. After that, I continued my ‘watching-the-telly-and-only-get-up-if-you-really-need-to-go-to-the-loo’ activity while randomly poking, hugging and splashing my friends on facebook. Dh la kwn aku ni xde la ramai mane pun dlm facebook tu. It didn’t even take an hour to poke, hug, splash, etc. my friends. Then I was back to feeling so useless. I really needed to do something fruitful. So, mlm tu pg tgk wyg. Haha. Fruitful kn? :p It felt so good to be able to get out of the house, but I was a bit moody thinking about having to come to work today. But, nonetheless, here I am.

I think that this has to be the one of the first long weekends where I didn’t get to spend as much time with my Darling. I really miss him a lot. However, deep down I honestly think that both of us kind of need the time away from each other. Therefore, all is well. :)

On a completely different note, I have uploaded pictures from the MIJF 2008 last week. Ayin, ampa mesti suka kn? :p I know I still owe you pictures from the last few entries, but please bear with me. Kami bz~ :D Anyway, enjoy ya!

Pics above are of my Darling, me and my best friend, Elmi. By the way, Elmi's single and available. I'll be dead meat if she knows what I'm up to but, anyone interested? Hehe.

Happy Birthday

Me and Neeta being silly

This pic was taken the last time I was back in Penang, me and my gorgeous little sister :D

It's my little sister's birthday today and I really miss her, a lot. She's in Penang and the last time I saw her was during Chinese New Year. Lame kn? I really hope I'll get to see her on my next trip back to KL. But anyway, I just wanna wish her Happy Birthday Neeta. I love you. :)

I Get Moody

I get moody..

1. when my tummy is not flat enough
2. when I fit into my jeans a little snug
3. when I can see my ‘muffin top’ however hard I try to hide it
4. when I feel fat (what’s new?)
5. when the weighing machine 'lies'
6. when he doesn’t seem to miss me as much as I miss him
7. when he doesn’t seem to love me as much as I love him
8. when he subconsciously ignores me
9. when he is not around when I really need him
10. when I’m sick and alone
11. when I’m PMS-ing
12. a LOT. Period.

p/s : I really miss my Darling :(

Usaha Tangga Kejayaan

This morning, after dropping my Darling off at his office, I drove to mine at a lazy pace. Somewhere along the way, a few cars overtook me. None of them looked familiar. So I just assumed they were all strangers. But I was wrong. As I was making a left turn into the compounds of my office, I saw this one car that overtook me earlier. It made a stop just outside the main gate. I am not the busy body type actually. Hehe. Tapi bile aku belok masuk gate tu, kepala aku terpusing ke arah kete yg disebutkan tadi. And I thought I saw someone really familiar coming out of the very unfamiliar car. I was right. It was Mr. PrM. He was with a gorgeous and hot looking woman. Aku ni seorang yg baik sangka. Cewah. I was telling myself, lawa nye la bini dier ni although I was a bit suspicious, I kept that good thought in my head until I reached my workstation and saw my gossip partner. Haha.

Me : Eh, M. Aku bukan la nk mengumpat pagi2 ni kn. Tapi aku ade soklan aku nk tanye kt kau.
GP : Ha? Ape bende? (dengan muka penuh interest dan teramat lah kepoh)
Me : Wife Mr. PrM kai tudung x? (dengan nada bisik yg teramat lah perlahan)
GP : Sape? (bisik blk)
Me : Wife Mr. PrM la. (stil dok berbisik sambil tunjuk ke arah tpt org yg dimaksudkan)
GP : Ohh. Wife dier pakai tudung and cermin mata. (ttibe ade extra info kn)
Me : Ohh. Td aku nampak dier dgn sape ntah. Anta dier kt bwh. Cun gile. Kurus. Lawa la.
GP : Aku tau. Aku mmg tau dier ade someone la. Cuma x sure sape. Aku pernah nampak dier berceting kt ym ber’baby’ dgn pompuan mane ntah. Tp aku sempat tgk gamba pompuan tu. Mmg lawa.
Me : Tu la psl. Lawa gile pompuan tu. Haih. Takut aku.

Hmm. It really got me thinking. It got me scared too. What if I was his wife? Naudzubillah. I don’t really know how I’m going to handle the whole thing. So I and my gossip partner came to a conclusion that no matter how many kids you have, you really have to take care of your appearance, especially your weight. It may seem a little bit unfair but that’s what I think we women should do. Btw, I saw Mr. PrM’s wife. She does look a little old. But she’s probably tired looking after their 2 little babies. Hmm. It’s really unfair. But, nonetheless, if they (men) can go out and have fun with hot skinny b*tches, we can make an effort to have guys drool over us as well right? We can be one of those Hot Mamas. Watch out skinny b*tches! :D

Oh and pls don’t get me wrong. I’m not encouraging all of you women out there turn yourself into hot mamas just so you can cheat on your husbands. Just merely to keep them by your side. Hehe. (mcm senang je kn.) Tp xpe. Usaha tangga kejayaan. :)

p/s : Dear God, whatever it is that you may want to test me with in future, pls let me be strong. And I pray that you spare me the heartache of having to go through a life with a cheating husband. Amin.

Miri International Jazz Festival

The Miri International Jazz Festival is here. I just can’t wait! I’ll be driving down to Miri with my Darling tomorrow morning. We’ll be meeting Elmi over there. Yippie! She’s joining us on our quest of having fun on Saturday night. Again, I really can’t wait. :D Dh malas keje dh arini (pdhal hari2 pun malas jgk). :p Anyway, for those going, see you guys there!

A Year Ago Today..

A year ago today, we met. Little did we know we would be where we’re at today. But, I’m not complaining. Never. I’m just very grateful. :)

Just to express how deeply in love I am with my Darling, here’s a little something taken from someone who’s in love just as deeply as I am…

Once Upon a time,
On a day that looked like any other day,
Someone like no one else came along,
And made my life into something that would never be the same…

That’s you, my Darling,
That’s the day we met,
That’s why today means so much to me,
Happy anniversary Darling…

A Promise

Sigh. You told me it’s no longer there. You confidently told me it’s already been removed. Why? I went just to see. It’s probably a bad idea, but nonetheless, I went anyway. I went after procrastinating for so long because I really do not wanna be disturbed by the sight of it. I probably went to check if it’s truly gone. But I was left disappointed yet again. I think I should stop going there. I know you’ve told me lots of things to make me believe that the thing that bothers me so much doesn’t mean a thing anymore. But please, just put yourself in my shoes for a second. Would you be ok if I were to do what you subconsciously did? If you are, then I shall rest my case. Just know that right now, deep inside, I’m not quite ok. But then again, I won’t ever show it I guess. It’s probably just gonna ruin your day and that’s the last thing I wanna do. I should go now. I should go with a promise made to myself, never to go there, ever again.

Confused

I have been very very very busy. Nak update blog pun xde mase. :( Tapi aku tetap gigih nk citer pasal peristiwa yang berlaku last week. Since the meeting I was supposed to attend has been postponed to God knows when, so here I am. Hehe. Anyway, just read on peeps!

Orang 1 : Kamu 1 (bkn nama sebenar), dalam borang tu dier mintak nama bank and cawangan. Cawangan tu letak Bintulu ke letak kat mane kiter bukak akaun?
Orang 2 : Bukan. Kamu 2 (bkn nama sebenar) bukak akaun dulu kat mane?
Orang 1 : Dekat Batu Gajah.
Orang 2 : Oh ok. Letak la kat situ ok?
Orang 2 : (Blur gile..) Ok. Thanks.

Haha. Do you have any idea how confused I was? But nvm. Lawak pun ada jugak kn? Haha. Masih ada skit rs nk tergelak bila teringat conversation above. Oh, I have to go. Duty calls. *wek wek* Toodles!

Speedtest

50 words

Speedtest

Time To Panic

Seriously. I am so getting fat that I think it's really time to panic. Apsal weighing machine itew ttp menunjukkan angka 5*.6 wpun aku x mkn pape sepagi? Berat air kah aku? Bila nk menunjukan 5*.8 kembali? When will my jeans be loose again? I hate this. Haih. I need a treadmill! Anyone feeling overly generous? *wink*

I am

I am
1. gaining weight (shit!)
2. afraid of the outcome of my appraisal
3. feeling like crap because of my weight
4. afraid that I will outgrow my Darling and look like his big sister
5. in need of a miracle
6. bored despite the fact that I hv tonnes to do
7. one person who hates moving places
8. still thinking hard about losing the weight I hv gained
9. jealous of people who eats like an *oink oink* but still managed to look like a stick
10. pms-ing, as usual

Stop Bingeing!

Help! I can't stop bingeing on this stupid biscuits at the office. Kenyang ke, lapar ke, sebuk nk p seluk tin biskut itew. :( I need to stop bingeing! Unless I wanna grow sideways. Sigh. Damn the biscuits inventors.

What I Need

My hp has been acting up lately. I have no idea why. Eh jap. I think I know why. Hehe. Byk kali jatuh sgt dh actually. Pernah terbuang masuk tong sampah siap. I need a new phone. I know it's far from being my birthday, but if there's anyone out there with a big enough heart looking to do some charity, please get me this lovely baby. :D Just exactly what I need right this very moment.

Two Down

My apology for the super late entry. This was supposed to be posted last Friday, but yours truly has been really really busy. Anyways, enjoy! :)

It’s Friday and I have absolutely no mood to work. Plus, I’m so sleepy. Hehe. So, here I am, updating my blog at work. Asek mkn gaji buta ja. Bila la nk insaf ni. Hmm. Anyway, while I’m still in the mood, I’d just like to share stories and events that took place yesterday/last night. :)

Well you see, my Darling turned 25 yesterday and it was actually part of my plan to make him think that I forgot. I have already planned something for him that night actually. But then, yesterday suddenly turned into a super busy day. I had to do my medical check-up, had to attend a meeting after lunch and also had to play netball in the evening. Mcm byk sgt bende nk kene wat semlm. Kepenatan aku dibuatnya. Tp papepun, I think I managed to pull it off. Despite the fact that I had to rush here and there, but seeing him happy, beats everything else. :)

So, in the morning, before I went to the clinic, I picked him up and sent him to the office. I could feel that he was eagerly waiting for me to wish him. When I asked him, “Roti tu leh mkn lagi ka? Bila expiry date?” He answered, “28hb”. Instead of just saying today, he told me the date. Talk about hinting. Hehe. But I just had to ignore him. Poor baby. I’m sorry. Tp it was all worth it kn? So, after I dropped him off, I went straight to the clinic, texting him like nothing happened when my sis, Ayin text me to tell me that my Darling sedeh I haven’t wished him. My plan is actually working! I continued doing what I needed to while worrying about the party tonight. I have been nervous about the party since Monday. While waiting for my turn at the clinic, I thought of surprising him with something else. You know, just in case the surprise party tidak begitu surprising.

Once I was done with my check-up, I went to the florist to get him some flowers. I got him lilies. :D Cantik sgt. Oh talking about the lilies, I almost blew my own cover. Ayin la ni. Org kelam kabut nk beli bunga, dia sebuk nk gambaq la apa la. I almost sent the mms to my Darling ok? It was really a close one. And when I realized I nearly sent it to him, I sent and sms to my sis (so I thought) saying, “nasib baik x antaq kt hadi.haha.” There was no reply from my sis. About an hour later, a reply came from my Darling, “aming nk antaq kt sapa ni? hehe.” Ayo. Kelam kabut x aku ni? Last2 tersalah antaq sms pulak. I had about 30 seconds to come up with something. And the only thing I could think of at that particular time was I got rashes on my breast. Haha. And the sms was meant for my sis cuz I almost sent the mms of my breast to him instead of her. Matila menipu je keje nye kn. Who cares? Janji x kantoi.

Moving on, after I bought the flowers, I went home to take his birthday gift and card, and went straight to his place to leave them in his room. No, I didn’t break in, I had his housemate (who was on MC , thank God) let me in. :) So after putting the flowers, the present and the card on his bed, I went off to the office, just in time to prepare what’s needed for the 3pm meeting. But before that, I made a quick call to my Darling, wishing him happy birthday, apologizing and blabbing away about how I’m d worst girlfriend ever for forgetting his birthday and bla bla bla. Hehe. I am a very good actress and a good liar you know. :p Anyways, two and half hours later, I was on the phone with my Darling, again. He found the surprise. I could here the excitement in his voice, and I thanked God for making this a true success. One down, one to go.

About half an hour later after that, I was already at the indoor stadium getting ready to play netball. And suddenly I saw my Darling. He came to watch me play. :D And guess what? Me and my team won! So we were waiting for the finals when he decided to go home and bathe, pray and all that. I was beginning to worry because I had plan for the party to start at 8.00pm and it’s 7.50pm and I was still at the court waiting for my game. My Darling pulak baru nk blk mandi bagai. Famished friends were already waiting in front of the Pizza Hut with the cake. Sume pun nk sms and call at that time, membuatkn aku sgt la kelam kabut sbb battery hp pun dah tinggal satu bar. If my battery was to go flat, how on earth am I gonna call my Darling? I really really need to save this situation, I thought. So I drove to Pizza Hut just to make sure everything is ok while calling my Darling to tell him that my housemate, Nani was involved with an accident and we really need him there A.S.A.P as we cannot reach Nani’s boyfriend. Ye mmg, keje aku menipu je semlm. But it was all for good reasons. :)

About 15 minutes later, my Darling arrived, and we managed to surprise him with the cake. Personally, I wasn’t quite satisfied with Nani’s acting (matila demand), but all went well. My Darling was more confused than surprised I think. Haha. Tp x kisah la. Janji dier terkejut. :D A birthday song later, I was back at the indoor stadium playing my finals netball game. Penat bagai nk rebah asek ulang alik. Plus I was so nervous it wasn’t gonna go as I planned. Thank God it wasn’t all that awful, despite Nani’s bad acting (ttp kn?). OK back to netball. After settling for second place, I headed right back to Pizza Hut. Darling ku dh dok call tanye bile nk sampe. Maka berebut lah aku ke tempat party itew. Dgn busuk2, all sweaty and tired, I sat beside my Darling and began eating. Tak lalu actually because I was so bloody exhausted from all the running around and the nerves. So I only took 3 breadstix and a glass of warm water. :)

When we were done joking and laughing out loud, all of us headed home feeling all full and happy. Hehe. I’m glad the night turned out OK. Nothing beats seeing my Darling having so much fun, with me and his friends. So, that’s pretty much how my Darling’s birthday went down. Hopefully it was one of the best birthdays for him. Despite the fact that I was dead tired, I felt a feeling of satisfaction in me, and damn it was such a good feeling. I quietly celebrated my victory. Finally, two down. :)

p/s : To my sis Ayin, pics will be posted later ok. Jgn mrh. :p

30 People

Can you name 30 people you can think of right off the top of your head? Don’t read the questions underneath until you write the names of all 30 people.

1. Mama
2. Papa
3. Ayin
4. Neeta
5. Abang
6. Hadi
7. Emi
8. Elis
9. Fiza
10. Yean joo
11. Maria
12. Acai
13. Apau
14. Iwan
15. Aritha
16. Shasha
17. Zalina
18. Kak Nieta
19. Izzu
20. Syai
21. Nani
22. Subki
23. Katie
24. Taufeeq
25. Amirul
26. Deja
27. Ajud
28. Che E
29. Mak Nani
30. Mamu Non

*NO CHEATING*THE QUESTIONS:

01 How did you meet 10? : Met her in secondary school. My Form 3 classmate.

02 What would you do if you had never met 6? : I’d probably still be thinking about one particular jerk. And I won’t be this happy and grateful :D

03 What would you do if 20 and 15 dated? : Haha. I’d tell Farris it’s OK. Sabar je la. Jodoh di tangan Tuhan.

04 If you could marry between 6 and 14..who would it be? : 6 of course! Marrying 14 would be like marrying my own brother!

05 Did you ever like 9? : Till today :)

06 Have you ever seen 4 cry? : Yes. Used to make her cry too. Hehe.

07 Would 4 and 17 make a good couple? : If they were lesbians. But then again, still, it might not work.

08 Would number 1 and 2 make a goodcouple? : Hmm. I guess so. I’m here, aren’t I?

09 Describe 8: Busuk. Haha.

10 Do you like 12?: An awful lot!

11 Tell me something about 17: Perempuan yg lemah lembut dan teramat lah sopan in public. So the opposite of yours truly. :)

12 What's 7's Favorite color? : Orange :D

13 What would you do if 1 confessed that he/she likes you? : I don’t think she has a choice of not liking me.

14 When was the last time you talkedto number 15? : Last saturday

15 How do you think 19 feels about you? : Alamak. Ermm. He probably adores me? :p

16 What language does 13 speak? : Bahasa ponen. Haha. *matiker mak*

17 Who is 2 going out with? : My mama :D

18 What grade is 16 in? : Already graduated la.

19 What is 5's favorite music? : House (wek wek)

20 Would you ever date 13? : Don’t think so. Too thin. Spt ranting di atas pokok. *lariiii*

21 Is 11 single? : No, married with 3 kids.

22 What is 28's last name? : Last name? First name pun I don’t know. Haha.

23 Would you ever want to be in a serious relationship with 7? : Jap nak imagine. Hmm. Hmm. Hmm. Probably not. :p

24 Where is 18 ? : Tgh cikcur?

25 What do you think about 20? : He’s got great legs!

26 What is the best thing about 30? : He used to help me with my art work. Damn good artist.

27 What would you like to tell 14 now? : I miss you. :)

28 How did you meet 9? : I can’t actually remember how, but met her in UTP

29 What is the best and worst thing about 2? : The good, he used to shower us with expensive gifts. The bad, how he can drive us all crazy doing absolutely nothing! :p

30 Are you going to know 3 forever? : Sudah semestinya!

31 How long have you known 26? : Not sure. A year maybe.

32 Who is 24 ? : My giant cousin

33 Are you or did you ever date 2 ? : Hell no. Eeuuuww.

34 Do you have a crush on 27? : YES! :D

35 Would you kiss 25? : Only on the cheeks. Itu pun kalau terpaksa.

36 Have you hugged/kissed 22? : Hahahah. Tidak pernah and I don’t think I ever will.

37 Would you like to hug/kiss 21? : Not right this very moment la

38 Is 29 your gf/bf ? : Nope.

39 What do you hate about 23? : Nothing kot. She’s fine the way she is.

40 What's your relationship with 30? : My Granny

Happy Birthday

It's my Darling's birthday today and I'd like to dedicate this entry to him. :) Cayang, just wanna tell you that I love you, more than this time last year, less than this time next year. Only God knows how grateful I am for you. Thanks for being there all the time. Here's wishing you only the greatest things in life. :)

On Cloud Nine

:D This entry will be started off with a big smile. Why? Well, simply because I feel so loved. Also, I have fallen so much deeper in love than I already have. :) I haven’t been able to stop smiling since I got back from KL last Sunday. I haven’t been moody since, too. Despite the tremendous workload and the ‘super-smart’ people that couldn’t stop getting on my nerves. Best tak? Best kan? You might be wondering by now, what the hell could I possibly be so delighted about? Am I right? :D Just had to grin again. Haha. Just look at these pics. Enjoy!

The flowers and the card :)

Lampu dr IKEA :D

Saw them already? That was the surprise from my Darling that was awaiting me as I arrived from KL. Sweet tak? I came back to my new home, to find a card on my bed, telling me there’s something in my new closet. And when I excitedly opened my closet, there it was, a bouquet of the most beautiful red roses I’ve ever gotten (OK OK, I’m probably exaggerating a little. But who dares say anything? :p). Speechless dah time tu. Bukan ape, you ppl really need to know that I have never been treated so specially. Not this special at least. So when I am, I am just on cloud nine. And I have been for a few days now. :D

Oh and also, you ppl need to know that my Darling the sweetest, actually helped me moved and unpacked all my stuff in my new room. Here’s a peak of what he did for me while I was gone. Bear in mind, sume perabot disusun oleh Darlingku mengikut kreativiti nya. Nak senyum nampak gigi lagi lah. :D :D

Cantik kan my room? Tersusun rapi. Balik dh xyh wat pape, leh tdo trus. Hehe. Can anyone actually ask for more? Not me. I’m just so grateful that I have this one person. Alhamdulillah.

To my Darling, thank you so much for all the trouble. I have no idea how to express my appreciation to you. Just you wait for tomorrow. Hehe. *wink*

p/s: Dear God, help me make tomorrow happen pls. I really need this. Pls.