Dead Wrong, Again

I am sad. I am beginning to feel that the phrase ‘do unto others what you want others to do unto you’ is bull. At least, in my case. I have always done this thing when I am about to be away for courses or meetings or etc. And deep down inside I kinda hope (or probably stupidly expect) that the same will be done when the other person is about to be away for all the same reasons. But I was wrong. Dead wrong, again. And it caught me by surprise because I really thought that this time around, things are all different. I have somehow developed a feeling (no matter who I go out with) that things I do for others will not ever be returned the same even if the situation is exactly the same. Some of you might be wondering why don’t I just ask or say something, right? Well, if I were to say anything with regards to this, I am sure as hell that I’ll be hailed as the most inconsiderate self-centred non-understanding controlling individual ever. So, having said that, I just wanna cry my heart out. Why? Because right now, I feel as shitty as I used to feel when I was with my ex. :(

p/s : note to self, STOP BEING A SELFISH INCONSIDERATE B*TCH! Dear God, a little help?