Goodbye

I need a good long rest and a miracle to restore what has been lost. Goodbye.

Trouble In Paradise

I smell trouble in paradise. Man, I'm in deep sh*t. Sigh. Hopefully it's nothing serious. *takut*

Wishful Thinking

Hello everyone. Today I feel so much better. I have been sick for the past one week or so. I was down with a terrible flu. Nonetheless, it took me two visits to two different doctors before I get to feeling like I feel today. Hmm. But anyways, here I am, all well and in high spirits. :) Arini terasa macam nak berangan sebab my birthday is around the corner (ada kena mengena tak?). Hehe. Papepun, tgk lah list ‘what I wish I will get for my birthday’ saya yang melampau iniew. :D

1. Madaline Leather Tote by Coach

2. Optic Baby Bag by Coach

3. Patchwork by Coach

4. Montorgueil GM by LV

5. Tivoli GM by LV

6. Tivoli PM by LV

7. Aquaracer by Tag Heuer

8. Link by Tag Heuer

9. Atlas by Tiffany & Co.

10. Hearts by Tiffany & Co.

Haa. Tu dia. Tak banyak kn? 10 aje. Haha. Mrasa! Sigh. I know these things will only remain in the memories of my many episodes of wishful thinking-s. But a girl can always hope and dream right? Who knows, I might just get one of those things up there delivered personally to me on my birthday. :D (matila berangan tak sudah).

Tired

Is it so hard to let someone feel that they are important? I never felt that it’s difficult. In fact, I can safely say that I have (most of the time) succeeded in doing so, at least to the ones important enough to me. How do I know this? I have been told so a few times. Tp kan. Orang2 yg aku treat so specially tu jarang2 nk treat me the same. I just wonder why. I set too high a standard ke? I don’t think so. Mcm simple je bende2 yg aku buat tu. But still I don’t usually get treated the same. It makes me sad really. Tak reti nk handle this kinda feelings. Sigh. I’m tired. :(

Dead Wrong, Again

I am sad. I am beginning to feel that the phrase ‘do unto others what you want others to do unto you’ is bull. At least, in my case. I have always done this thing when I am about to be away for courses or meetings or etc. And deep down inside I kinda hope (or probably stupidly expect) that the same will be done when the other person is about to be away for all the same reasons. But I was wrong. Dead wrong, again. And it caught me by surprise because I really thought that this time around, things are all different. I have somehow developed a feeling (no matter who I go out with) that things I do for others will not ever be returned the same even if the situation is exactly the same. Some of you might be wondering why don’t I just ask or say something, right? Well, if I were to say anything with regards to this, I am sure as hell that I’ll be hailed as the most inconsiderate self-centred non-understanding controlling individual ever. So, having said that, I just wanna cry my heart out. Why? Because right now, I feel as shitty as I used to feel when I was with my ex. :(

p/s : note to self, STOP BEING A SELFISH INCONSIDERATE B*TCH! Dear God, a little help?

'The' Conversation

Venue : Kuching Airport
Time : Around 5.30 pm

After ‘the’ conversation and discussion and updates and what not…

He : Are you OK? Why are you so quiet? You worried?
She : Yeah. A bit.
He : It’s OK. If you’re not ready, you tell me. I’ll wait. (with the sweetest most understanding smile ever)
She : Hmm. OK.

I don’t even know why I am feeling this way. Sigh. I just don’t believe I’m having all these weird thoughts running wild in my mind. Why? Hmm. Nevermind.

Oh ya, guess what? We won! Yeay! We managed to bag the Gold Medal this year. Alhamdulillah. You people have no idea how good it felt to finally beat the defending champion of three years. I mean after having to lose to them three consecutive years, victory could not have tasted any sweeter. :D Anyway, congratulations are in order to my lovely and fun teammates. Miss you guys and 'makciks' already. Can't wait to see you people again next year. Actually, I can't wait to kick 'her' a*s next year. Hehe.