A Promise

Sigh. You told me it’s no longer there. You confidently told me it’s already been removed. Why? I went just to see. It’s probably a bad idea, but nonetheless, I went anyway. I went after procrastinating for so long because I really do not wanna be disturbed by the sight of it. I probably went to check if it’s truly gone. But I was left disappointed yet again. I think I should stop going there. I know you’ve told me lots of things to make me believe that the thing that bothers me so much doesn’t mean a thing anymore. But please, just put yourself in my shoes for a second. Would you be ok if I were to do what you subconsciously did? If you are, then I shall rest my case. Just know that right now, deep inside, I’m not quite ok. But then again, I won’t ever show it I guess. It’s probably just gonna ruin your day and that’s the last thing I wanna do. I should go now. I should go with a promise made to myself, never to go there, ever again.