Truly Devoted

I have been busy and I am still busy actually. Tp ttp nk update my blog because I just cannot handle people around me anymore. Need a break.

Anyway, my gossip partner and I were having a drink this afternoon and we got to talking about being faithful. I don’t know how that topic actually came up, but it did. Here’s how part of the conversation went.

GP : Jes, kau pernah menipu tak?
Me : Ade orang tak pernah menipu ke?
GP : Dengan A*e dulu la..
Me : Ha? Menipu cane ni? Kalau menipu cakap, pernah la. Sape tak pernah?
GP : Kau pernah curang tak?
Me : Ohh. Pernah. Tapi aku rase dier tak pernah tahu kot.
GP : Boleh tahan jugak kau ek. Kat mane? KL ke? Mamat tu keje mane? Handsome tak? (punye la penyibuk kn, bertubi soklan ditanye)
Me : Amboi. Ye la, kat KL la. Kat Bintulu ni nak curang dengan sape pun.
GP : Kire kau pnah ade 2 boyfriends at one time la?
Me : Emm. Tak kot. Aku pun tak tau. Tapi what’s for sure is that we were more than friends la.
GP : Kau memang suke dier ke kau saje2 bosan nak sakitkan hati A*e?
Me : Entah. Aku boring kot. Tapi aku memang suke mamat tu. Ade pernah terlintas gak aku nak tinggalkn A*e to pursue this guy sebab aku dah x seronok, tapi aku tak wat pun.
GP : Laa..apsal?
Me : Sebab aku bodoh kot.

There. The conversation was way longer but I just had to leave some of the details out to protect my privacy. (Yela tu kn). Actually, this isn’t the first time a friend is asking me if I’ve always been loyal. To tell you the truth, I am a loyal person (under the normal circumstances that is). Truly devoted. But I guess when I was with my ex, I wasn’t actually very happy. I felt restricted and very uncomfortable. Not forgetting to mention that he was a jacka*s that was cheating behind my back most of the time. And don't even get me started on the lies he told me. But still, that’s not a good excuse to be cheating behind anybody’s back. But I did cheat on him. No one knows about this other guy except my best friend. Even so, I only told her after I broke up with my ex. No wait, after my ex broke up with me. Hmm. Some might say, it’s probably not considered cheating if you only go out and did nothing. Agreed. Only I think (I know actually) I was in a relationship with this other guy. We went out practically everyday after work when I was in KL. And no, he didn’t know I had a boyfriend at that point of time. Of course la kn. Kalau dh dier tahu, tu dh bukan menipu la. Ke still kire as menipu? Hmm.

Come to think of it, why didn’t I actually leave my ex for this guy? Hmm. Tak sampai hati agaknya. Plus, he was not really my type. (Eceh, ye ke?) Or probably was just too stupid. But, I’m glad I didn’t leave my ex or things might just be different and I won’t be ending up with my Darling right now. That would probably be the biggest miss ever. Rugi tau. :D