Just Because

Hye.

I don't categorize myself as having lots of friends. I am a firm believer of quality instead of quantity (you can shoot me now if you like :p). But really, I am. I could probably count those I considered (real close) friends with one (or probably both) hands. Today, just because it's Friday (haha!), I wanna talk about the people I love so much. People that I don't think I can't live without. People that I truly appreciate. People that I consider family. :)

As you all know, I am stuck here in Bintulu for quite a while now. Since I got back from my maternity leave (about 7 weeks ago), I haven't been back in KL. This is probably the longest I have stayed in and I can't say that it is not affecting me. I have my baby, my mom and my Darling of course, but still, I need Bobbi Brown. :p I think you might notice in my previous entry, I mentioned that I have ran out of some stuffs. It was so hard trying to obtain those thing. To make it worse, they only sell it at certain places. My sisters were both too busy to help. Not to mention the fact that my Darling's going back to KL but will have NO time to do the shopping for me. I was kinda down. Felt a bit helpless until Aritha came along. :D :D :D She, despite having to take care of her baby (who's about the same age as Aryan), offered to lend a helping hand. It might be something small to her, but I really appreciate what she's done for me and I am here to tell her just that. You have no idea how much happier you've made me just by getting me those Bobbi Browns. And this was just one of the littlest things she did for yours truly. Kalau nk tulis suma, mmg panjang la kn. :) Papepun, glad to have you as part of my life.

I came from a small family. My father's an only child and I had (only) 5 cousins on my mother's side. And that's about it. So when I did my wedding at home, I was faced with the greatest challenge, manpower. Thank God for Elmi though. She was there working her ass off. Cleaning, vacuuming and keeping yours truly company of course. :) I couldn't thank her enough for what she did. Even my mom kept on mentioning 'Nak masuk minang pun ada sorang ja anak jantan'. Haha. Boleh? But jokes aside, she really was of the kindest soul I've ever met. I couldn't really imagine what my life would be like without her. I am now waiting for the day to return the favour to her. So Emi, cepat la kahwin! :p

Although I talk about how it kills me not to be able to easily get hold of my Bobbi Brown stuffs, I am not an expert on makeup. I'd love to do more but for now, powder and (some occasional) blush will have to do. But, I do have a person who without fail, will always entertain me when it comes to it. I think Shasha knows that I am more talk than action. Haha. But still, she's over-flowing with tips and what nots. I rant about my makeup concerns all the time with her. Not once has she turned her back on me. In fact, she even got me a gift that would somehow help me pull the look I've been dying to achieve. Shasha, the day I pull off the smokey eye look, I shall channel all my thanks to you! :)

There. The three amazing souls I am very thankful for. Love you girls!

p/s : this post is making me miss them all. :(

Bye.

Impeccable Timing

Hye.

I have tonnes of work to finish before I leave Bintulu for almost 3 months. But here I am. I tell you, I have impeccable timing. :p Anyway, I was tagged by Aritha and here goes nothing. Why am I doing this now? Simply because I don't feel so good about leaving my Darling behind, alone in Bintulu. :( So since Aritha pun ckp nk buat entry ni kene la ade mushy feeling baru leh buat, so here I am.

First time jumpa with your hubby, bila n kat mana?
The very first time we met was on the 7th May 2007. It was in Bintulu. Oh and kat tennis court. :D

How he proposed?
Erm. Ni ade tricky skit. He didn't actually propose, but that was the first time he ever mentioned about getting married. So, I just assumed that that was a proposal from him. Anyway, read the story here.

Special date with ur hubby?
I don't quite understand what this question is all about. Is it asking about date as in anniversary, birthday etc kinda date or the kinda date that you actually go to? Hmm.

Changes that he asked you to do?
None. This is one guy that never asked me to change anything about me (yet). Things might change after I deliver though. :p Especially when I have trouble shedding those extra kilos. Haha.

What about him that u love so much?
Everything! But if I have to choose, I love the fact that he knows how to handle me well. Not everyone can manage handling yours truly ok.

What is about him that you wish he wud change?
Probably his lack of self-confidence. He really should believe in himself more. I mean I do. :)

You will lose your mind & crack your head when?
He's not somewhere in my vicinity and I can't get a hold of him. Sakit jiwa ok.

You will smile thru your eyes for the whole day when he?
Surprises me! :D

Complete below sentences "my love towards my hubby is as big as
The universe? OK la tu kn. Hehe.

So, done. I will be leaving Bintulu tomorrow. Sedeh nak meninggalkan my Darling. This is the first time we will be apart for quite a while. Hopefully things will turn out well for us. InsyaAllah.

Bye.

What Bonds Us

If there’s one entry I want him to read, it’s definitely this one.

I feel like we have grown apart a little. Maybe not, I don’t know. Maybe we have grown too comfortable. Too comfortable that we are being complacent. Mind you, we are not in trouble. We are fine. We are. Promise. :)

I don’t know if it’s the hormones, but something got me thinking. Maybe after we were apart for quite sometime this month, I felt a little different. Something made me realize that we are not like we used to be. We see each other everyday. But what do we actually do? I don’t quite know.

We used to email each other at work. Now? I only get a forwarded email from him maybe once in two days (if I’m lucky). I’m not blaming him. I don’t forward him emails at all sometimes. I miss the jokes we used to share through emails. I do. So much.

We used to sms each other at work no matter how busy. Now? I only get an sms asking me to pick him at the end of the day or sometimes to go for lunch. Nothing much in between. Then again, nothing I’ve done to put the routine back to it’s place. I just let it be. But I miss the times when I’d have to juggle between finishing up my work and replying his sms.

We used to play tennis together almost every evening. Now? He goes to play with his guy friends. Not that I mind. I think he’ll be better off playing with them anyway. I mean, how can a guy improve playing with a girl right? Unless I’m Jelena Jankovic (matila tanak tulis Serene or Venus as contoh). Still, I miss the amusement we shared on the court. It really got us close to each other.

I don’t know what bonds us nowadays. The time spent in the car to and from work? Have we officially reached that level? The level where people just go through a relationship (doing nothing out of the ordinary) just because they are in it? Have we really reached that point? How did we manage to go ‘there’ so early? It scares me. It scares me big time. So, I think I’m gonna have to do something to make us not go ‘there’ so early. Or better still, not go ‘there’ at all. :)

I really don’t wanna end up feeling like he has to be with me just because. I wanna know that he is with me because he wants to. Right now, it feels like we are distant despite being so near. I don’t think we are unhappy. I just think we forgot what we used to have that made us close, the quality time. Real quality time. Hmm. But no worries, I will try to refresh both our memories. Hehe.

So, pray for me people. I’m on a journey to revive my love life. Although I don’t quite know how yet. But I hope I will succeed. Hey, who knows, he might realize that we have been too complacent and decided to do something too. :D

p/s : What has been written, everything, is solely what I feel. Like I said, it could be the hormones talking. I’m not blaming him at all. It takes two to tango people. Remember that! Toodles~!

p/s lagi : WE ARE NOT IN TROUBLE! To my darling, I love you and I miss US.. :)

On Cloud Nine

:D This entry will be started off with a big smile. Why? Well, simply because I feel so loved. Also, I have fallen so much deeper in love than I already have. :) I haven’t been able to stop smiling since I got back from KL last Sunday. I haven’t been moody since, too. Despite the tremendous workload and the ‘super-smart’ people that couldn’t stop getting on my nerves. Best tak? Best kan? You might be wondering by now, what the hell could I possibly be so delighted about? Am I right? :D Just had to grin again. Haha. Just look at these pics. Enjoy!

The flowers and the card :)

Lampu dr IKEA :D

Saw them already? That was the surprise from my Darling that was awaiting me as I arrived from KL. Sweet tak? I came back to my new home, to find a card on my bed, telling me there’s something in my new closet. And when I excitedly opened my closet, there it was, a bouquet of the most beautiful red roses I’ve ever gotten (OK OK, I’m probably exaggerating a little. But who dares say anything? :p). Speechless dah time tu. Bukan ape, you ppl really need to know that I have never been treated so specially. Not this special at least. So when I am, I am just on cloud nine. And I have been for a few days now. :D

Oh and also, you ppl need to know that my Darling the sweetest, actually helped me moved and unpacked all my stuff in my new room. Here’s a peak of what he did for me while I was gone. Bear in mind, sume perabot disusun oleh Darlingku mengikut kreativiti nya. Nak senyum nampak gigi lagi lah. :D :D

Cantik kan my room? Tersusun rapi. Balik dh xyh wat pape, leh tdo trus. Hehe. Can anyone actually ask for more? Not me. I’m just so grateful that I have this one person. Alhamdulillah.

To my Darling, thank you so much for all the trouble. I have no idea how to express my appreciation to you. Just you wait for tomorrow. Hehe. *wink*

p/s: Dear God, help me make tomorrow happen pls. I really need this. Pls.

The Simplest Thing

I was feeling crappy today that I didn't feel like talking to anyone. So I decided that I needed a little me time. Took my boss's car to go to the bank (for absolutely no business at all), when this happened..

sms received : Manje~
sms replied : ye cyg.awat? :)
sms received : Mish busuk..

And then suddenly, everything's OK. The simplest thing that got me smiling today. :D

A Card and A Chocolate

Yeay~! I got a card and a chocolate! :D Someone actually missed me while I was gone. Hehe. I’ve been away from Bintulu for about 2 weeks. Went for my course in Kuantan for about 5 days, then spent the rest of the days, finishing my annual leaves in Penang and KL. Truly a great getaway, only I miss my TTM. :(

Anyway, to the person who was thoughtful enough to surprise me with the gift and the card (my TTM of course), thanks dear. You truly made me smile. And just so you know, I missed you too. :) Glad to be back and close to you again. *hugs*

Btw, here’s a sneak peak of the card (outside only OK :p) and the yummy chocolate I got upon arriving in Bintulu yesterday. Sweet eh? :D



p/s : To those who were wondering why this is such a big thing to me, it’s because I’m not used to being treated this way, at least not by the people who matters most to me. So, that’s why I still can’t stop smiling. And it's Tuesday already. :D