(Meaningless) Entry

I had migraine this morning. It woke me. :( I feel a bit better now. I am doing my work with my sunglasses on in the office. I just can't stand the light. It makes me dizzy. Sigh. Pray that I get well soon. Oh ya, I'll be flying off to KL later this evening. I'm gonna be attending two courses. One in Bangi and the other one in KL. I will be in KL until the 3rd of December. :D So febeles people, nk party x? Marila~ :D (lega skit sakit kepala aku kalau cerita psl party. hehe.)

Anyway, this entry was supposed to be posted last Friday. I didn't get to post it. Walaupun dh basi cerita ni, aku x kire. Read on.. :)

Hello lovely people. I think I owe lots of pictures and updates (as promised in previous entries) but given the fact that I only have readers I can count with one hand, I think it’s OK if I let that be for now and blab about some other nonsense. :)

We had a farewell makan-makan earlier today for some of the staffs that are gonna be demobed next week. I am so full and sleepy, hence this (meaningless) entry.

Yesterday (or was it two days ago?) my ex-boss came up to me (while I was in a discussion with my Cost Engineer) and asked, “Jes, Jes, am I putting on weight? Gemuk tak I?” Hearing that, I jokingly tried to look at his bump (sopan nye gune word ni kn? :p) for a better judgement. To my surprise, he walked in front of me to provide better view. Best tak? (matila amek kesempatan katanya). Haha. Then I honestly said (with a big grin), “Not really. Dulu lagi teruk.” He answered, “ Aaahh. Dulu lagi teruk kn? OK OK.” and walked back to his workstation with a smile. Some of you might be wondering what was all that about. The thing is, he (my ex-boss) used to be fat that his wallet would be protruding out of his bump like nobody’s business. This is of course due to the fact that his pants got too tight for him. And guess who was so honest about the whole situation? Yours truly, of course. :D I mean, he did ask. What was I supposed to do? Honesty is the best policy kn? Dah ttibe dier ckp, “ Gemuk kn I skang?” “Hehe. Emm. Agak la. Ketat suar you. Sexy semcm dh. Wallet pun mcm ssh je nk masuk tu.” I answered. He laughed so hard and said, “Tu la. Ssh jgk la actually”. Hehe. Itula sebabnye dier ske dtg kt aku and tanya whether dier dh gemuk ke x. Because everytime we were to discuss about health/weight related issues, he will never forget what I said. We had a good laugh. :)

Happy Birthday

Me and Papa during Raya this year

My father turns 64 today. Alhamdulillah. I ordered cupcakes for him. Since I am in Bintulu, my sis, Neeta will be picking them up later today. I hope she won't forget to snap a pic of the cuppies before they start eating. Hehe. I'll upload the picture of my father's birthday cupcakes later. I really hope they are gonna be lovely (and tasty) and that he's gonna like them. Anyway, Happy Birthday Pa. May you be showered with good health, great fortune and lots of love always. :)

Tag Bahasa Melayu

Aku telah ditag oleh Jalina beberapa minggu yg lalu. So inilah jwpan kepada soklan2 yg hanya org takde keje je sebuk nk jwb. Oh btw, ini ialah tag bahasa melayu.

Nama-nama timangan anda :
Jesmin – strangers
Jes - my friends
Min – my bosses (I know, but it’s really beyond my control)
Aming – people who are really close to me, family mostly and some of my sister’s friends
Sayang/Manje – Darling ku :D

Anda seorang yang :
1. Degil & cerewet (for all the good reasons of course :p)
2. Pemurah & baik hati
3. Suka bagi hadiah kt orang dan juga diri sendiri
4. Suka gila kat budak2 (xde range umur mcm acai..sume budak2 yg baik and well-behaved aku suka)
4. Manja dengan orang tertentu (wpun Darling ku ckp, aku mmg manja dgn suma org. motif?)
5. Moody
6. Gemuk dan hitam (dulu) tapi kurus dan tak berapa hitam (skarang) (ni point tak perlu tapi aku nk type jugak. so?)

Insan Teristimewa ?? Describekan Die Terlalu Istimewa Dimata Anda :
Apsal ayat dier macam tak lengkap ar? Aku yg dpt D utk BM masa UPSR dulu pun tau mcm slh je ayat dier ni. Cane nk jwb? Takyah jwb leh x? Tak reti nk jwb ape. Tak phm soklan. (matila x jwb soklan tp ttp nk bebel).

Lagu kesukaan anda :
Berlambak. Tapi yg paling suka dr dulu sampe skang ialah Everything I Do, I Do It For You. :D

Makanan kesukaan anda :
Angin :)

Warna kesukaan anda :
Warna warni. Tp kalau gadget, seboleh2 nya PINK. Macam iPod ku. :D

Tiga benda yang mesti ada dalam beg anda :
1. Wallet
2. Handphone
3. Hand Sanitizer

Kali terakhir masa anda menangis dan kenapa :
Aku slalu menangis. Kata drama queen. Hehe. Act, tak igt dah last skali menangis masa bila. Tp rasa nya last month kot sbb hampir2 tak dpt dewan yg aku nk utk wedding aku. Haha. (Yes, I am getting married! :) Matila wat announcement dlm entry tag sajor.) Tp last2 dpt juge. Alhamdulillah.

Tag 6 rakan anda :
Aku mmg suka tak ikut direction karut2 ni so aku nak tag sorang ja iaitu Jas.

p/s : aku baru la perasan benda alah ni sebenarnya kena jwb dlm bahasa melayu shj. tp aku peduli apa kn?

What Bonds Us

If there’s one entry I want him to read, it’s definitely this one.

I feel like we have grown apart a little. Maybe not, I don’t know. Maybe we have grown too comfortable. Too comfortable that we are being complacent. Mind you, we are not in trouble. We are fine. We are. Promise. :)

I don’t know if it’s the hormones, but something got me thinking. Maybe after we were apart for quite sometime this month, I felt a little different. Something made me realize that we are not like we used to be. We see each other everyday. But what do we actually do? I don’t quite know.

We used to email each other at work. Now? I only get a forwarded email from him maybe once in two days (if I’m lucky). I’m not blaming him. I don’t forward him emails at all sometimes. I miss the jokes we used to share through emails. I do. So much.

We used to sms each other at work no matter how busy. Now? I only get an sms asking me to pick him at the end of the day or sometimes to go for lunch. Nothing much in between. Then again, nothing I’ve done to put the routine back to it’s place. I just let it be. But I miss the times when I’d have to juggle between finishing up my work and replying his sms.

We used to play tennis together almost every evening. Now? He goes to play with his guy friends. Not that I mind. I think he’ll be better off playing with them anyway. I mean, how can a guy improve playing with a girl right? Unless I’m Jelena Jankovic (matila tanak tulis Serene or Venus as contoh). Still, I miss the amusement we shared on the court. It really got us close to each other.

I don’t know what bonds us nowadays. The time spent in the car to and from work? Have we officially reached that level? The level where people just go through a relationship (doing nothing out of the ordinary) just because they are in it? Have we really reached that point? How did we manage to go ‘there’ so early? It scares me. It scares me big time. So, I think I’m gonna have to do something to make us not go ‘there’ so early. Or better still, not go ‘there’ at all. :)

I really don’t wanna end up feeling like he has to be with me just because. I wanna know that he is with me because he wants to. Right now, it feels like we are distant despite being so near. I don’t think we are unhappy. I just think we forgot what we used to have that made us close, the quality time. Real quality time. Hmm. But no worries, I will try to refresh both our memories. Hehe.

So, pray for me people. I’m on a journey to revive my love life. Although I don’t quite know how yet. But I hope I will succeed. Hey, who knows, he might realize that we have been too complacent and decided to do something too. :D

p/s : What has been written, everything, is solely what I feel. Like I said, it could be the hormones talking. I’m not blaming him at all. It takes two to tango people. Remember that! Toodles~!

p/s lagi : WE ARE NOT IN TROUBLE! To my darling, I love you and I miss US.. :)

If Not Much More

A friend of mine recently shared quite an interesting story about her relationship with her boyfriend. I am not quite in the mood to tell the full version of the story. So I’m just gonna highlight the important points (tp aku rs akn jd pjg jgk las2).

So her boyfriend went out with one of his best friends (who happens to wear panties – pardon my French) one night. Not that it was a problem for my friend. She really never did mind. This, given the fact that she has never met the girl he’s going out with. That’s how much trust she had bestowed on him. Anyway, she wasn’t waiting up for him or anything (it was almost 12 midnight ok, I wouldn’t wait up too) but she was expecting a text (at the very least) from him the next morning. Not to report of his activities to her, but to tell her that he is safely home or something like that. So she asked why he didn’t sms her. His answer apart from saying he was too sleepy and all, Because you didn’t tell me to. As shocked as my friend was, she diplomatically replied (at first), Oh? I thought we have always practiced that.

Anyway, when she made a fuss out of the whole thing, he thought she was jealous. He didn’t understand why she was making a deal out of the fact that he didn’t text her when he came home. Of course my friend was hurt. I mean, they always tell each other when they have reached home after an outing regardless with who. And to be (kind of) accused of being jealous was not making things better for her. But being her, she chose to let go.

A few days after, she went out for dinner with some friends. She told him prior to that. But once she got home, she totally forgot to text him telling him that she was home. Not intentionally. She wanted to but there were a lot happening (broken fan, hp battery went flat, wanting to catch a movie on HBO etc.) in the house once she got back that it slipped her mind. He then asked her why she didn’t text him saying that she’s safely home. She was so tempted to answer, because you didn’t tell me to. Then again, knowing her, she answered that and something else. The truth. She couldn’t really tell if he was upset or anything. But he then replied, It’s ok. We sometimes forget what we have been practicing. Yes. His exact reply. You guess right, his sarcasm was not making things better at all. When she again made a fuss about his statement, he said that he just wants to know if she is safe. That’s all.

So I made an interesting conclusion out of the whole story. If she ever makes a fuss about him not texting, she’s jealous of his girlfriends. If he ever makes a fuss about her not texting, he’s concern about her safety. How does that work actually? Does she not have the right to worry about his safety? I guess not as much as him. But she loves him just as much as he loves her, if not much more. Hmm. So bagaimana?

On a different topic completely, I love this song. Don’t quite know why. Enjoy!

Someone's Watching Over Me – Hillary Duff

Found myself today
Oh I found myself and ran away
Something pulled me back
The voice of reason I forgot I had
All I know is you're not here to say
What you always used to say
But it's written in the sky tonight

So I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even if it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe
Someone's watching over me

Seen that ray of light
And it's shining on my destiny
Shining all the time
And I wont be afraid
To follow everywhere it's taking me
All I know is yesterday is gone
And right now I belong
To this moment to my dreams

So I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even if it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe
Someone's watching over me

It doesn't matter what people say
And it doesn't matter how long it takes
Believe in yourself and you'll fly high
And it only matters how true you are
Be true to yourself and follow your heart

So I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even if it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe
That I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even when it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe
That someone's watching over
Someone's watching over
Someone's watching over me

Someone's watching over me

Thank You Darling!

I know that I am somehow supposed to be updating about my raya celebration above everything else, but for now, I can only thank my Darling. I am so happy right now. :D :D :D :D Thank you Darling! Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. So much. I love the gift you got me. Thanks again. Nk senyum lagi. :D :D :D :D

p/s : just in case some of you are wondering what I am blabbing about, wait for the updates ya..hehe..and also the pics..I had a blast this year.. :)

p/s lagi : sneak preview raya celebration ku : acai dtg beraya rumah aku sampe pecah gelas br blk..haha.. :p

Selamat Hari Raya

Hye lovely people. :) Today, I had time to kill. Lots of time. So I decided to play around with Picasa. Hence, the following entries. :D Enjoy!

Oh btw, I'll be going off tonight. Penang, here I come~! :) Tak sabar nye nak meracau time raya with my sisters and friends. Anyway, pray for my (and also my Darling's) safety ya. Selamat Hari Raya, Maaf Zahir Batin. Stay safe everyone. Will see you when I get back. Toodles!

p/s : anyone feeling overly generous? aku nk hadiah raya! (ttibe je kn :p) tp kalau xde, xpe la kot. just enjoy this song. :)