On Cloud Nine

:D This entry will be started off with a big smile. Why? Well, simply because I feel so loved. Also, I have fallen so much deeper in love than I already have. :) I haven’t been able to stop smiling since I got back from KL last Sunday. I haven’t been moody since, too. Despite the tremendous workload and the ‘super-smart’ people that couldn’t stop getting on my nerves. Best tak? Best kan? You might be wondering by now, what the hell could I possibly be so delighted about? Am I right? :D Just had to grin again. Haha. Just look at these pics. Enjoy!

The flowers and the card :)

Lampu dr IKEA :D

Saw them already? That was the surprise from my Darling that was awaiting me as I arrived from KL. Sweet tak? I came back to my new home, to find a card on my bed, telling me there’s something in my new closet. And when I excitedly opened my closet, there it was, a bouquet of the most beautiful red roses I’ve ever gotten (OK OK, I’m probably exaggerating a little. But who dares say anything? :p). Speechless dah time tu. Bukan ape, you ppl really need to know that I have never been treated so specially. Not this special at least. So when I am, I am just on cloud nine. And I have been for a few days now. :D

Oh and also, you ppl need to know that my Darling the sweetest, actually helped me moved and unpacked all my stuff in my new room. Here’s a peak of what he did for me while I was gone. Bear in mind, sume perabot disusun oleh Darlingku mengikut kreativiti nya. Nak senyum nampak gigi lagi lah. :D :D

Cantik kan my room? Tersusun rapi. Balik dh xyh wat pape, leh tdo trus. Hehe. Can anyone actually ask for more? Not me. I’m just so grateful that I have this one person. Alhamdulillah.

To my Darling, thank you so much for all the trouble. I have no idea how to express my appreciation to you. Just you wait for tomorrow. Hehe. *wink*

p/s: Dear God, help me make tomorrow happen pls. I really need this. Pls.

Thank God It's Friday

I’m so drained. Thank God it’s Friday! It’s been a hectic week for me. Since I got back from my vacation in Bukit Merah (which got me sick), I haven’t had time to waste. It was work all the way. I was busy preparing materials for this particular session I was supposed to arrange and learned later that I had to facilitate as well (just great). Apart from the demanding days at work, I am also planning a surprise birthday party for my Darling. And believe me, it’s not an easy task to perform. Plus, I am in good old Bintulu. Really can’t expect anything much from here. So anyways, I had to crack my head about this whole thing. The where, the what and the how to. The who has already been covered thanks to help from Nic and Azran. I hope I won’t have to worry about that anymore. Still, I really want this to go well. Perfectly well. So I managed to squeeze in a few phone calls to various potential restaurants while keeping up with work at the office, but to no avail. Sigh. I could feel myself giving up already. But I told myself, I would want this for me too. Then I tried restoring the energy in me. It was so difficult because I was so sick. The headaches and the flu were just simply torturous. But that didn’t stop me from arranging my Darling’s surprise birthday party. Oh and did I mention earlier that I am also in the process of moving into a new house? Gonna have to pack right? Talk about one crazy week. Everything seems like they are to be done before the week ends. I hope I can pull this off. I’m so tired. :(

Btw, I found a place for the party today. Nothing special actually but it’s the easiest place to surprise my Darling. Pizza Hut, Bintulu. Hehe. I took the package for 20 (RM207). Senang skit kot. I really don’t have the luxury to actually choose and survey the other places. I hope this will turn out well and as per plan. Oh, cake pun dah order jugak. Cheese cake. Hehe. Harap2 sedap la. Order dari kedai bernama Chef. :D Pizza hut will also provide a chocolate cake for FREE. Best kan? I felt so relieved that they have these party packages. It just simply makes my life so much easier.

Another thing worth mentioning is that it’s my first day of period today and I haven’t had the time to pms this month. Haha. That’s how busy I’ve been. Oh and people, I’m flying back to KL tomorrow! See ya!

Happy Birthday

This entry is dedicated to my elder sister Ayin. It's her birthday today. I just wanna let her know that on this special day, I pray that all the younger sisters and brothers in the whole world would get a sister just like her. Because truly, she's the greatest! :) Happy Birthday Ayin. I love you. God bless.

Me and my lovely sister, Ayin :)

Feeling

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Just to express how I am feeling rite now..

Dear God

Dear God,
Pls grant him loads and loads of patience to put up with me everyday. Let him have all the strength to tolerate me. Pls don’t make him sick, tired and bored of me. I know I am not easy to handle and I haven’t been a fun person as of late. But I do love him so much. And it will kill me to know that his love for me might subside even a little just because I cannot curb my mood swings. Pls don’t drive him away, ever. Let him know that I’m very grateful for him.

Dear God,
Just let him accept me for who I am. Don’t let him regret the decision he made to be with me. Don’t let him think that he’s responsible for all my bad days. The last thing I’d want is for him to be disappointed in me. Pls don’t make him scared of being himself when around me. Pls don’t make him upset with my being this way. Let him be able to just stomach me whatever state I’m in. I really need him. I don’t think I can be without him. So just let him always know that I love him dearly. Always. Pls don’t ever make him hate me or love me any less.

Dear God,
Pls grant me loads and loads of patience to face the life here. Pls make me feel better. Let me learn how to handle myself well. Pls let me refrain from throwing tantrums when I’m with him. Pls just let me be more happy than sad. I am so afraid of making him sick of me. I’m scared that I might be driving him away. I’m terrified that I’d be the ‘mistake’ he made. Pls lift this burden of being perfect around him off me. Grant me some peace dear God. Let me be able to let go when I’m around him. Take away all the nonsensical things that bug me all the time. Let me be the fun person he knew. Let me be the smiley person he knew. Let me be the carefree person he knew.

Dear God,
Pls. Just make us last. Pls. Let our love for each other always be strong regardless. Pls, if you have to, only let death do us part.

Amin.

My 'Non-working' Working Day

Yesterday was the 25th Anniversary Celebration for my company. It marked the day when the first cargo was sent off to Japan, 29th January, 25 years ago. Just imagine how far we’ve come since then. Mr. President himself came down to commemorate one of the most important celebrations in the history of my company, or better still my mother company, together with us company midgets. Hehe.

Anyway, in the morning, I was nominated to attend the ‘Sending-Off Ceremony’ at the terminal. It’s a ceremony to revive the historic moment of Malaysia's 1st LNG cargo sending-off event by replicating the ceremony that took place in Bintulu long ago. Basically, we just watched the ship sail off dock. Just to remember the day, 25 years back. I guess. Despite the rain and the waiting, it was still kind of exciting for me (waiting was not so bad as I had my Darling to keep me entertained. Leh dok main lukis2 muka org la apa suma kn. Haha). Seeing the Tenaga Satu cruise its way to Japan, blowing its horn numerous times somehow made me feel a little nostalgic (walaupun aku masih belum dilahirkn di waktu itew). There were people waving at us from the ships. Nampak mcm bes je atas kapal itew. Hmm. Wonder if I’ll ever get the opportunity to be on board one day. Let’s just keep my fingers crossed. Who knows right? :)

Once done with the ceremony in the morning, I was already getting ready for the event in the afternoon - an Engagement Session with the top man himself. So, off I went, carelessly walking towards the registration counter when I was stopped by my HR Manager. He was looking at me with this really weird look. I was so confused that I thought ‘Jgn la bg butang baju aku terbukak ka apa’. Haha. What? You should’ve seen his face. Anyways, when I was finally in front of him, he reached into his front pocket and pulled out a piece of paper. It was one of the planted questions for the Q&A Session later. You know, just in case nobody wants to ask anything, I had to get up and save the floor. I had question number 3. So, after the 2 other identified person ask their questions, I’ll be forced to ask mine. Sigh. There goes my plan to sneak out early and do shoe-shopping for the dinner later. So I took the piece of paper and off I went to find a seat. Lucky me, I found one near the microphone. I was praying hard that I wouldn’t have to get up and ask anything. But still, just in case I had to, I was prepared. Ttp kn? :p At around 2.40pm, the session started. During the Q&A Session, so many were standing to express concerns and demanding answers. Including one of the identified person that was holding planted question #1. That made me a little confuse because if I remember correctly, we (the identified people with the planted questions) were supposed to ask only when members of the floor have no questions. But in this case, this person actually was racing to the microphone with another guy. Huh? Kind of funny actually. But heck, who cares. I was too busy praying I wouldn’t have to get up and ask my question. An hour passed, and I was beginning to feel comfortable as the session was gonna end any time. I was quietly celebrating the fact that my prayer was soon gonna be answered. But I guess it was way too soon.

It was down to the last question, and suddenly no one wanted to get up and ask anything. No one. What is wrong with you people? How did you turn from being so bloody active, concern and full of questions, to totally nothing to say? Sigh. After procrastinating (for about 30 secs), I finally got up and ask my question. Dh la soklan aku tu xde kene mngene ngan perkembangan company. ‘Who are your mentors?’ Wth kn? And it had to be the last question. There’s nothing I could have done. I just had to save the day. Haha. Hopefully, aku menjadi sedikit glamour (in a good way of course) kerana soklan aku itew. *wink*

So the engagement session was done and over with and now we’re down to the Appreciation Dinner. After several failing attempts of me trying to put on my pareo (mcm nk nangis mencuba ok?), I was finally at the Dewan Suarah with my Darling. This is just another event that was dedicated to all staff for the contributions towards 25 years of safe delivery. Invited artists were Dayang Nurfaizah and Alleycats. I didn’t quite enjoy their performances. Why? Simply because they didn’t sing my favourite songs. Haha. But, they were good performers no doubt. All in all, the dinner was a just an ordinary one, nothing remarkable except how handsome (to me) my Darling looked that night. :) Tak caya? Pictures below will tell you that I don’t lie. Hehe. Enjoy!

My Handsome Darling and me :)

Still managed to smile although I really felt like my pareo was gonna fall off

There's a reason why my hands are like that - to prepare for the worst :p

Can you spot my Darling having fun dancing with the stars? :D

Oh btw, that’s pretty much where my 'non-working' working day ended. Wpun x keja, tp penat. Tp best! :D

Good Girl Gone Bad

Girls, you people should really listen to this song. It's by gorgeous Ms. Rihanna. Nothing but fantaboulous. :) I can's stop humming to it since last week. Hehe. Enjoy~!

Good Girl Gone Bad - Rihanna
We stay moving around solo
Ask us where you at
We don’t know and don’t care (don’t care)
All we know is we was at home cuz you left us there
You got your boys and got gone and left us all alone
Now she in the club with a freaky dress on
Cats goin at her, keep that dress on
Tryna get enough drinks in her system
Take her to the telly and make her a victim

Patrone on the brain
Ball Player in her face
They shake the spot
She’s just another cake

Easy for a good girl to go bad
And once we gone
Best believe we gone forever
Don’t be the reason
Don’t be the reason
You better learn how to treat us right
Cuz once a good girl goes bad
We gone forever

He stay with the flock of em o ya
Got a girl at home but he don’t care
Won’t care (Won't care)
All he do is keep me at home
Won’t let me go no where
He thinks because im at home
I won’t be gettin’ it on
And now im finding numbers
In the jacket pockets
Chicks calling the house

Non-stop
It’s getting out of control
Finally I can’t take no more
He finds a letter on the stairs
Saying this is the end
I packed my bag and left with your best friend

Easy for a good girl to go bad
And once we gone
Best believe we gone forever
Don’t be the reason
Don’t be the reason
You better learn how to treat us right
Cuz once a good girl goes bad
We gone forever

We stay moving around solo
Ask us where you at
We don’t know
And don’t care (don't care)
All we know is we was at home cuz you left us there
You got your boys and got gone and left us all alone

Easy for a good girl to go bad
And once we gone
Best believe we gone forever
Don’t be the reason
Don’t be the reason
You better learn how to treat us right
Cuz once a good girl goes bad

We gone forever
We gone forever
We gone forever