Dear God

Dear God,
Pls grant him loads and loads of patience to put up with me everyday. Let him have all the strength to tolerate me. Pls don’t make him sick, tired and bored of me. I know I am not easy to handle and I haven’t been a fun person as of late. But I do love him so much. And it will kill me to know that his love for me might subside even a little just because I cannot curb my mood swings. Pls don’t drive him away, ever. Let him know that I’m very grateful for him.

Dear God,
Just let him accept me for who I am. Don’t let him regret the decision he made to be with me. Don’t let him think that he’s responsible for all my bad days. The last thing I’d want is for him to be disappointed in me. Pls don’t make him scared of being himself when around me. Pls don’t make him upset with my being this way. Let him be able to just stomach me whatever state I’m in. I really need him. I don’t think I can be without him. So just let him always know that I love him dearly. Always. Pls don’t ever make him hate me or love me any less.

Dear God,
Pls grant me loads and loads of patience to face the life here. Pls make me feel better. Let me learn how to handle myself well. Pls let me refrain from throwing tantrums when I’m with him. Pls just let me be more happy than sad. I am so afraid of making him sick of me. I’m scared that I might be driving him away. I’m terrified that I’d be the ‘mistake’ he made. Pls lift this burden of being perfect around him off me. Grant me some peace dear God. Let me be able to let go when I’m around him. Take away all the nonsensical things that bug me all the time. Let me be the fun person he knew. Let me be the smiley person he knew. Let me be the carefree person he knew.

Dear God,
Pls. Just make us last. Pls. Let our love for each other always be strong regardless. Pls, if you have to, only let death do us part.

Amin.