The EX

X-X : Is she still calling u?
X-Y : Emm. Dh lame dier x call. Sms pun xde. Tp aritu I call dier, dier x angkat. Pastu dier call blk, I tgh mandi kot. Pastu dh x call blk dh.
X-X : (Wat???? U called her??) Ohh ok..
X-Y : I called her just to ask if she’s doing ok. Kn dier dh stat keje sume.
X-X : (Wat???? Why do u need to??) Hmm ok.
X-Y : It’s nothing la cyg. I just wanna make sure she’s fine like I am. I feel bad if she’s not. I have you and I’m happy. I want her to be the same.
X-X : (So if she’s not, wat r u gonna do??) Ok..
X-Y : R u ok? Don’t worry ok?
X-X : Haih. U guys have to understand, dat when u dump someone, u r the last person dat shud try 2 make the other person feel better. Let alone make sure they r happy. So if she’s not happy, wat r u gonna do? Find her a new bf?
X-Y : Haha. I don’t think she’d want dat.
X-X : Exactly. So then leave her be. She’ll b fine on her own. You’re the last person she needs to be worrying abt her. Trust me, I’d know.
X-Y : Hmm. I know. But I can’t help but feel bad. Cyg, don’t worry ok. It’s not like I call her all the time.

If X-X had the guts, the conversation would probably continue on like this.

X-X : You wanna call her, fine. I can’t stop you. You can call whoever. But pls don’t expect me to be super understanding abt the whole thing. She’s your ex. Of course I’m worried. You’ve hd 5 years of history. I’d be crazy if I don’t feel anything.

But knowing how gutless X-X cn be when it comes to the EX, the conversation ended so much simpler.

X-X : Emm. Ok.

This conversation took place some time last month. Why is it suddenly here now? X-X saw X-Y’s phone last night, accidentally while X-Y was trying to text a friend of his. Then X-X saw the EX’s name on the missed calls’ list and on the inbox messages list. X-X is not a paranoid person or a person of suspicion. In fact, X-Y has already explained and ensured X-X that it’s nothing. But still, X-X can’t help but feel worried and sad and inferior. As bad as X-X felt, X-X still kept quiet and managed to laugh and smile. Hurtful, yes. What else to do? Hmm.